Currently Playing Signals, Calls and Marches By Mission of Burma see related

- all world cowboy romance

so i haven't written in this since october. interesting.

a lot has changed since then, but it's really too much to get into. basically i spent that past month trying to figure out who i am and what it is that i want out of my life. i made a lot of changes and things are working out well for me so far. i can't complain.

the semester is over, summer is here. i couldn't be happier about that.

also, i have a crush on a boy who is shorter and skinnier than i am. oh geez.

i decided to continue to work at building blocks over the summer.... i am too attached to the kids there to leave. it just sucks that the hours are so shitty... i'm going to try to find other work in the mornings, at least a few days a week to try and help my money situation. but honestly, how could i leave these kids?

Cameron playing peek-a-boo

Hasani and Taya

Jaelyn

Currently Playing Walking with Thee By Clinic see related

- for the wars

so it appears as if it is time for yet another sporadic update. oh, joy!

i am so thankful that i don't have any classes on fridays. it means that my weekend started about an hour and a half ago. terrific. i love thursdays.

school is going well. lot's of work. i will continue to loathe my ims teacher. nothing will ever, ever, ever change that. hatred.

my other classes are going smoothly, however. i skipped my art history class on wednesday night because i felt that the debate was more important.

jon also began teaching me how to drive last night. stick shifts are quite intimidating but i did an alright job. it was a brief lesson but a lesson regardless.

doc is a wonderful friend because he knew how badly i wanted to see saves the day last night but i couldn't... so he called me during This Is Not An Exit which was very thoughtful of him. after the band was done playing Doc called me back and i talked to chris connelly for a HOT minute. that is why doc is a wonderful, wonderful friend.

political debate at school today like woah. best call of the entire debate: College Democrat, in his 30 second response to (african american) College Republican. "That allegation is so ludicrous. Perhaps even more ludicrous than, well... a black republican." The second best call was in response to a comment made by the same college democrat on the issue of the assault weapons ban. He said something along the lines of "these weapons are not being used for hunting; you don't need an AK47 to shoot down deer. Bambi would be able to run away, regardless." to which i replied, "yeah, well bambi's mom couldn't."

and now it is time to go take a shower and start the weekend.

happy 1st birthday, xanga. too bad you are the neglected journal.

by the way, this cd is absolutely fantastic.

so school has begun and already i wish it were christmas vacation. i have some rather tough classes and my work ethic isn't really where it aught to be so... that's not good. but i have people around to motivate me and help me out so i should be alright.

jeans fair was this weekend... and that means that the giant hershock family bbq was yesterday. it was a good time. my cousin brian came down which was cool because i haven't seen him since christmas, maybe even before that. colleen, sean, george and jon came up and we all went over to the fair for a little while. went on the gravitron for old times' sake and it was awesome. except for the fact that it was pushing my glasses into my face. ouch. but yeah, it was a good time. i saw melissa's father and i talked to him for a little bit and i'm happy to hear that melissa is faring well in the army.

after the fair we were going to go to aura park but it was getting late so we departed for jon's house. team colleen beat team george down there and we just smoked, sat around and talked while some people played super mario bros. 3. i enjoyed watching joe play that game cause he's like a robot, he knew exactly what to do and it amazed me because, while i was never that good at that game, it reminded me of my childhood so much. it's awesome.

so today is coinstar with colleen and then homework and then who knows? not i, that's for sure.

that is colleen kicking owen's ass at my bbq last weekend

 me and the twin at dorney park... we're pumped!

this is me and my boyfriend, jon... what a lovely picture, huh?

the sun was incredibly bright this day, i could hardly keep my eyes open!

ah, my ride is here.. i guess more to come later?

Currently Playing We Have the Facts & We're Voting Yes By Death Cab for Cutie see related

so it's been quite a while since i've written in this journal.

where has the summer gone?

friday, august 27th will be my last day at children's village. this makes me extremely sad. hopefully i will be able to work there over christmas break and maybe next semester... definitely next summer.

i dread the end of this month. joey will leave for school and it will be rather sad. i want to visit him up at school a lot this year and i'm sure that will be accomplished. i fear that i won't see jon as much as i have lately and i've grown so accustomed to seeing him every day that not seeing him will make the school year that much harder. colleen will be home though so that is something that makes me smile. and, of course, i will see george every day, along with numerous other lasalle people so i guess i can't complain that much.

"twist your head around, it's all around you. all is full of love. all around you"

starry configurations am just a receiver
divine recombinations am just a recordist
receptionist - unhappy medium
receptionist - unhappy medium
excellent accommodations am just a bellboy
beautiful surroundings am just some gravel
or peat moss, what have you
or peat moss, what have you now?
why must you treat me like you do?
don't you know it's all for you
dear infatuation, you do not see me
die here beside you in see-through obscurity
governess, fancy less, we'll sound the alarm
and drum up some simpleton for you
to eat these apples from your eyes
emptiness fills room
your love's bud goes full bloom
you don't love me
aren't thinking of me
why am I waiting for you to see I'm alive
storybook ending am just a ledger
hardly worth a mention or the paper
it's written on and cried upon
and kissed once by wax
but still you treat me like you do
with everything I've done for you
striking like a bird of prey along your notepad now
the only year that turns your way
my dear diary: it's just you and me tonight
you don't love me
aren't thinking of me
you don't love me
aren't thinking of me tonight
why am I waiting for you to see I'm alive

things i love:

-trips to the rocks and creek with joey on beautiful summer afternoons.

-how the children at asianville make me smile.

-how happy he makes me.

-night spent "playing soccer" and run ins with cops and laughing on back porches while bug zappers provide background noise.

-jets to brazil